Metal Gear Solid PS1 Model Pack
UPDATE:- The release date will be this end of year.
I've been receiving tons and TONS of messages regarding about the MGS1 PS1 models I posted here on deviantART, and I've been thinking, "y'know what? I think... it's time now." So~, I've been asked if I would release these models on public, so here's your answer... ...YES. YES, I WILL RELEASE IT. I will release the MGS1 models to the public so that people can play around with it, port it to other games for modding purposes. And it's going to be ONE WHOLE PACK, including the characters, enemies, maps, weapons from the VR disc (the one where it shows you the model of said item when choosing the mission) and probably more. Also, I might throw in a Johnny Sasaki model as well, with his textures from both NA and JP version in. I'll tell ya, you won't believe what I see when I got Johnny, especially from NA release. Good thing they censored his buttocks though. It's... quite unpleasant to see his pixelated junk in front of your face. LOL!
Now that being said, you might be asking "when is it going to be released?", so here's the thing; I'm not really good with the deadlines, but I can assure it's going to be either the end 2021 (next year) or 2022. And, one more thing, I CANNOT do this by myself, so that means I need your help on this one, IF YOU REALLY WANT TO SEE THIS PACK TO BE RELEASED.
Here are the list that you can help me with:- 1.) I need someone who has an experience with XNALara, because I've watched and seen the community's growing each and every day. But I've come with an exception; I will see and check your profile if your works are well-known to the community. If you have more than 500 XNALara deviation posts (XNALara models, arts, any XNA-related) and if you have more than 3,000 watchers on your profile, then I can send you the model pack, and then you can post it on your dA once you port it. But if you have lower than the ones I wrote up there, I'm sorry, but I cannot give you the MGS1 pack.
2.) Once the MGS1 models pack been released, I want you guys to REUPLOAD my pack to somewhere else. It can be Dropbox, Mega, Mediafire, Google Drive, Internet Archive, any file-hosting sites that's easy to reach and without any ads bullshit. The more reupload of the pack, the better. It's not easy to extract these models without getting your brain exploded with it's ridiculous amount of textures and separate limbs, y'know. 3.) Perhaps share my dA profile/adding me to your Watch list? Okay, I maybe sound like a typical YouTuber that goes by saying "Hey, if you want more videos, leave a "Like", "Comment", "Share", "Subscribe" or whatever they're gonna say. But really, it's okay. You can add me/share my dA profile or not, it's really up to you. If you did, then I really do appreciate it. If you don't, then I appreciate it as well. But I'm into 3D animations right now and been hanging out a lot on YouTube, so if you're into YouTube right now, you can check my channel and -- well, I hate myself for typing this -- if you like it... ...subscribe, pl0x? LOL! And there you go, those are the lists I'm giving you. It looks really simple, doesn't it? Well... maybe. Oh, and ONE MORE THING, if you guys have plans to port the models to Source Filmmaker and Garry's Mod, or ANY ports for modding purposes, here's ONE LAST THING for you to do:- Please do credit my name when it's due.
^that's one very simple and easy to follow, but most of them forget so easily. How can that one tiny little rule is so difficult for you guys? Huh... I don't understand you people. :/ Also, this is for those who're voluntarily to help out the release of MGS1 pack, so you're not getting paid for this. In other words, the release for the pack will be postponed and put on-hold if you decided not to help out. It's really simple.
REFLECTION
You're so young, so innocent, yet so... playful.
But now, we're all changed. And when we look ourselves in the mirror, we look different than our past selves.
How we wish to relive the past when the future hurts us the most.
The changes we made sometimes hurting us in silence, but we did for our own greater good.
How we wish to live in the past...
How I wish to live in the past...
P. S. BTW, I'm not gonna commit suicide or anything just because I wrote this. I'm fine now, it's just something that I witnessed earlier, and then watching videos about people making changes of themselves, and how they hurt themselves when they see their old photos, and it leads me to write this piece of journal.
As for me, I'm fine. I'm guarantee I'm gonna be okay.
Standing on my own from now on...
Of course, I did mention before in my Facebook that no one can dragging me even they tried their best to knock me down because they're different people who hates the things I do and I just simply ignore them. But this... this is your own flesh and blood, the ones who gave you birth, the ones you helped you and guide you through your life. I never thought it can come to this...
There's so many things I wrote on my status and I nearly forgot of how long I wrote for one status. Here, this is my list of statuses that I write, some of them are after I visit certain place or doing certain things. Hope you enjoy reading my story that was happening to me last week and what I'm doing after that...
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I feel like I'm no longer having hopes of making 3D animations stuff anymore because the ones who supported me have suddenly said "it got no future", "no profit" where I've tried to find one and then said I'm dreaming too much.
So that means what I'm doing here isn't real, then? All of them is just a dream? Like I'm cosplaying before. Was that a dream too? Not real? If that so, then maybe I should do nothing by now because what all I'm doing here... is just a bunch of hallucinations and dreams that won't become a reality.
Maybe I should just quit, really.
~ Friday. March 7th, 2014. 7:08 PM.
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Silent crying at the moment.
~ Friday. March 7th, 2014. 7:29 PM.
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This is my first time feeling down...
One more voice from them and I might not gonna talk with anyone in real life except typing things what I have in my brain here on FB. Just wanna go silence, like as if I can't talk anymore. I do wanna talk with my toys or the walls though. But talking with them is quite useless if they're beating me through their words.
Yes, I did said I can stand on my own ground, but the ones can defeat me was the ones who supported me before. Now I'm just another useless human being with no goals in his life. Maybe I should go and live in the asylum, that way I can be a psycho person if that's they want.
~ Friday. March 7th, 2014. 9:07 PM.
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Looks like I'll be doing things myself then. But I don't know if I could stand my ground or be strong once more because the ones who supported me is no longer supporting me and yet they turn their tables on me. I don't know if I'm in the mood to make those 3D stuff anymore.
~ Friday. March 7th, 2014. 10:35 PM.
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Maybe I shouldn't do 3D stuff anymore due to the things they've said. If it comes from the mouth of someone else, yeah I'll just ignore them and continue working on the things I wanna do.
Maybe around this September, I won't be fully active on Facebook or websites I used to. With these words, I would not forget and will stick it in my head for reminding myself everyday and every night.
Truthfully, nobody can drag me and beat me with their negative words because to me, talking with them idiots makes me even more idiot than they are. But in this case... you can't. The ones who gives you the birth, the ones whom supported you... they've finally turn their tables and no longer supporting on the things I did. If that so, then why should I bother continue doing these useless craps I'm doing right now?
I've been searching the sites day and night, trying to find places that could get me paid. I'm not just doing 3D stuff but I'm also doing a small voice acting too. BTW, speaking of voice acting, I did try to visit to this one music school in Kiulap where the fee is about $180 because it's a full package and I was planning to go there and if it's not this year, probably next year or so.
Back to the topic; I did try to find them everywhere, but their patience are gone too quick. They can't stand a day either. You've been given 12 hours to get the money at your own hand from your creations, through 3D and voice acting. How the hell do I find the money THAT easily? There's no way you can get paid on the spot by selling your voice for 15 seconds or making a 3D model for 30 seconds unless it's very basic. If there is, then I would've make more and more stuff as much as I can 24-hours nonstop!
Now, I got no hopes left in me. Although I thanked and appreciate some of the comments left on my status, I really thank you for that. But really, I hope those are true and applied to me that's real. Unfortunately, those words doesn't seems to love me but instead, it's getting farther and farther away from my mind. Now I got nothing else to do. I don't have any mood to do anything from now on. Just watching random videos on YouTube or play Flash games or something that keeps me company.
I guess it's all over now. I'll just sit here and do nothing. I think that's a good decision for me... maybe.
~ Saturday. March 8th, 2014. 4:48 AM.
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One day, if I'm completely losing my faith on this life I have right now, I would end up like this dude... but unfortunately, the strings on that iPod isn't strong enough to hold heavyweights like me. I should find a stronger rope if I want to.
~ Saturday. March 8th, 2014. 5:58 AM.
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Still thinking about what happened yesterday. Couldn't get it off from my mind. I still not sure what I'm suppose to do. I feel like there's nothing left in me. When they told me what I'm doing is just a dream, all of the memories that I wanna do... are crushed to bits. I don't have any hopes for this.
~ Saturday. March 8th, 2014. 4:39 PM.
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If I'm at Parking Bertingkat (Parking Lot) at BSB right now, maybe that's where my story ends.
~ Saturday. March 8th, 2014. 7:00 PM.
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I created this TS2 "art" after they told me that everything I do is useless. I was really feeling down that time for like, I don't know, a week or so.
I felt useless and regretting on the things I've done for the past 2 and a half years. They've supported me. They've supported me on my work, my creations, my creativity. That is, until they decided to turn their back on me and removing the stand off from my feet on purpose just for me to fall down on the deepest and darkest pit of my life.
I almost wanted to commit suicide and I wanted to. One day, I went to the Parking Lot at Bandar and I was at the top floor, walking towards the edge of the building so that I can jump to my death, but as I walking halfway through the building, my legs stopped and turned around by themselves... because something in my head tells me and whispered in my ears... "Don't".
Then I try to find this one stuff that could kill me instantly by drinking it. I took the bottle, pour it in the glass and ready to drink... but as I was about to pour the bottle into the glass, that same voice in my head tells me again... "Don't".
Finally, I try to find a rope the other day and I looked at the fan ceiling and say, "What if I tie this rope onto the fan ceiling and the other end would be on my neck?" So I was about to tie the rope onto the fan, but little did I know, I was just laying down on my bed, looking upward and staring at the spinning fan, holding my rope tightly. That voice again came back into my head and said the same word... "Don't".
That's where I decided that... I should try to stand on my own once more, but this time, there's no one to support me. Right now, I'm trying to help myself up and try to create a path... my own path.
So I end up spending my time continuing my TS2 projects which was left for almost 3 years now... and I decided to make this one TS2 fan-art -- let's just call it that way -- based on my life stories. I shall call this TS2 art as...
..."REGRET".
~ Sunday. March 16th, 2014. 3:23 AM.
I was searching for Lost Silver creepypasta pictures where I can "Favorite" them because of their awesomeness work when suddenly I stumbled on one of the pictures... and that picture looks pretty familiar to me. So I clicked on the picture and I was right; that picture belongs to me. Pretty odd thing about this picture is the description. According to the description, this is what she says:-
Poser Pro 2010? I don't remember using PP 2010 for my model. I made him completely in The Sims 2. And the thing that concerns me is when she says about the hat part and the black holes. This just rises my thoughts and attention about the picture. So I scroll down to the comment section and this is what I saw:-
Hmm... Good on making models, eh? If I were her, I wouldn't dare to say that unless if I show my real work rather than using people's work without their permission or crediting their name 'cause that's against the rules, right?
So I decided to take an action and leave a comment to avoid people's confusion, which is yesterday. Not long after that, I check back to whether someone responded to my comment or whatnot, and you know what I found? If you click on this link, then you'll probably know what I'm thinkin':-
kaito00-0001.deviantart.com/ar…
She deleted the picture off from her dA account... but that doesn't mean she can cover up her sweet lies about it 'cause I still have a proof for that if she says she didn't use my pictures nor she saw my pictures...
fc05.deviantart.net/fs71/f/201…
Yep, that's her name right there and that's my picture she used it.
Oh, to those of you who wondered where she get the pictures from, it was from my TS2 fan-site blog which you can click right over here to see some more works that I did including Ezio's outfit from Assassin's Creed Brotherhood:-
SiM's LiFE in BRUNEI
As you can see, I haven't update the blog for awhile because I'm too busy making 3D renders at the moment so when I get back, that means I have new stuff to show, but for now, let's just say all my TS2 projects will be put on-hold at the moment 'cause I got some more works to do.
And I guess that's all for today's journal and see you guys next time.
P. S I'm not trying to be rude or mean, but telling lies ain't gonna bring you anywhere even for the sake of seeking attention. If you want to, why not showing off your work by making your OWN model and post it up here on deviantART? I would love to see how you did with your model. But since you're lying to people and yet using my picture without my permission or crediting my name, I guess what you're trying to do there is lying to yourself, so... no thanks.
Unfortunate and sad to see...
But it is so unfortunate and sad to see that some of them in my country doesn't seem to like it because it is too sensitive for them and that they did not appreciate of what I did... Just to support my own country... Brunei Darussalam...
And because of that, I'd rather support other countries instead of my own country. Perhaps they will appreciate my work even more instead of the people here in Brunei... I feel much more better by doing that...
I was hoping to support my country through my works. I really like my country. To be honest, I love my country till the end...
But when I found they don't like me to support my country through my 3D works from the same people in the same country...
Then why should I support it?
Why bother to support my own country when they themselves does not want me to support Brunei? Why should I care about my country?
It's useless, really. With people like them, the country will not be successful. I'm trying to do as best as I could to support my own country, but like my old fella said, the ones who bring down the good name of the country is the people themselves. So why should I care?
Now I do not want to know what's gonna happen to the country. They thought that I was the one who gonna bring down the image of the country through my 3D render but they didn't think far, wide and open about what I'm gonna do with the flag. They only thought that it is too sensitive to put the flag in it while what I'm REALLY DOING was supporting my own country, that is Brunei Darussalam.
But after seeing these bunch of fanatics who thinks that I'm crossing the line, then I should support other countries instead of my own country. I don't care what they're gonna say to me about me supporting other countries instead of Brunei. I do not feel ashamed if I support other countries because I feel much more better by doing so instead of my country since they say it was too sensitive to put the flag in it.
Now I feel like I'm not a Bruneian anymore. My love and support for the country... is no more.
And the journal stops here, it seems. Will see you guys on the next journal.